Wednesday, November 26, 2008

tis the season

amidst the job searching and the daily chores, the holidays have crept in. and although i have an unknown future on the job front, i am still fully ready to participate in those holidays.

decorating brought back a flood of memories. when we were first married and shoved a massive tree into a small saturn and got needles everywhere. when scott was gone the first and second time, and christmas included trips to west valley detention center and deep longings to share the holiday without glass separating us. the christmas when kayti was 19 months and ryan was a newborn and wore a baby santa hat.

life keeps going. some of our decorations have traveled the whole journey with us. some of them remind me of specific times or people along the way. do you remember the ornaments you have exchanged and the people who gave them to you? i feel like they are a part of my christmas story now.

i love my starbucks christmas cds. they usher in the season for me as i bake and address envelopes for christmas letters. they keep me company while i watch snow flurries through my winshield as i drive around a town that has been my home now for almost three christmases. we are hoping this one is white.

the kids can't get enough of elvis' "santa bring my baby back to me." they put on santa hats and dance around.

and scott hunts. and hunts. and hunts. he has yet to get a deer this season and i just hope it happens soon. he has spent hours in frigid temperatures, in the dark, in a tree, waiting to get eyes on something he can shoot with a bow or a gun (depending on the season). the deer he's seen have not been in range, but he recounts their majesty to me. he also tries to explain how awesome it is to just be in the woods in the quiet. he has found something he really loves. and i am learning to be okay with that. learning is the key word. i just don't like the absence of him in our home and i am partly jealous because i don't have a comparable hobby/passion.

last year i worked the whole season. now that i have no job, i can really marinate in the smells and sounds and the time with family.

so that is the season so far. memories, the present and hopes for things to come.

1 comment:

  1. Merry Christmas, Kirsten!
    I hope you're doing well. How are things going for you?

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