new location

i have started a new blog recording the letters scott and i exchanged while he was in jail. it is a love story and a God story. check it out at http://insideoutsideletters.com.

one month in

it is about one month in to aflac now. i really like it. i wasn't sure if i could do it. it is so awesome when things click though, that it really keeps you going. i got my first paycheck saturday. that was a family event. especially ryan enjoyed that. he is my biggest cheerleader.

i have spent lots of time in indy in sales training. it has been overwhelming, super intense (the role playing part), and tons of fun (the socialiing part). it is really key to develop relationships with others that are doing the same thing i am doing. they just get it.

i have a great boss who wants me to succeed. i have a great brother with great contacts. and i am willing to pound the pavement. that is what it takes to get it done.

it also takes blessing from god. all i can do is everything i am supposed to do and it is in his hands. i am feeling now more than ever that i have to be in right relationship with him. i am assaulted on all sides with tempation and disctraction from where i need to be.

it is good to have good friends that can hold me accountable.

anyway, i am thankful to be where i am and i think in one year this will be a lot easier.

up early

this morning i have been up since 4. there is such a quiet. like nothing i experience the rest of the day. i have coffee in hand, have had a chance for devotional time and now catching up on everyone's blogs.

i love our small group. we get together wednesdays nights for dinner and sharing with a group of 6-7 families. we have a babysitter for our nearly 20 kids. right now the girls and guys are splitting up in our study "journey to freedom." we are going deeper. it is really meeting a need for me to take these surface friendships to new levels.''

i am the maid of honor in a wedding in june. it is for one of the students i actually disciplined at san diego christian college. we ended up going through henri nouwen's "life of the beloved" and it was tranforming for us both. it will be an honor to stand by her side as she says her vows. i am already stewing (or thinking intently in a good way, perhaps mulling is a better way to say it) about what i will say in the toast. it is such a short time with the opportunity to deliver a powerful message. it will be an amazing time. i wish scott could go with me. but because of finances and lack of childcare he will have to stay behind.

kayti is getting braces this week. we set aside money in scott's flexible spending account through work to get this accomplished. she is excited. she needs them so bad. it is a gift i am so happy we can give her--the gift of a beautiful smile. the whole process should take about 30 months.

i am signing my contract today...one day early. so it is back to work after a long hiatus. i know the time is right. i am just not wired to stay home, even though i long to do it. it is a wierd conundrum. i am not sure if that is the right word, but it is all i could come up with.

and ryan is up so i am off for the day.

a new path

after a month on unemployment, i am launching back into the world of the working. i will be self-employed. an insurance agent for aflac, selling supplemental insurance.

i take my insurance exam monday and am hoping i pass. if all goes according to plan i will sign my contract with aflac on thursday afternoon.

this is a bit scary but also exciting. it is commission based. i will only get paid if i get the sales. but i will make my own schedule and work from home. i will control h0w much i work. i can make time for special kid events like field trips.

aflac is actually one of fortune magazine's best 100 companies to work for, so i feel good knowing that.

my strengths according to strengthfinders 2.0 are strategic, communication and relator, so i think this will be a good fit. i will keep you posted.

yep it's broken...and the rest of my week

well the 4th toe is broken in three places. so i have a ginormous boot to wear. even though said toe sticks out the front of the boot, i think the weight is distributed so pressure is averted from it. the funny thing is i can't drive with it on. so i have to drive around with a flip flop on (or barefoot) the put it on when i arrive at my destination. very incovnenient.

scott left for hunstsville, al this morning for a business trip so it is single mom hood for me for a few days. i am very thankful that three years and 5 months ago God moved in a mighty way and let me have that man back!

kayti has an aversion to showers and baths. she doesn't want any part of them. it is always 'tomorrow.' so on the idea of my girlfriends i took her to bath and body works yesterday and let her pick out body wash and shower gel and we made a deal on the frequency of bathing and washing of hair. we'll see how it goes!

i got my first money from unemployment this week. that was nice. it is all so uncertain. should i loook in earnest for a job or just enjoy this for a while? i have to apply for jobs to maintain unemployment, so maybe the right job will present itself during the process divinely and i will know. the whole not knowing is wild to me.

broken toes?

so i was coming down the stairs last night with full hands and the dastardly things were so slippery. i fell and nailed myself. i thought i was fine for a few seconds until i realized i couldn't move my two toes (number 3 & 4) on my left foot. so instead of church today i am off to the clinic to have it checked out. most likely they'll have to just heal on their own (spoken from someone who has broken her pinky toe twice) but just to be sure i will go in anway.

my sister left this week and it was the hardest thing ever. even though i know it couldn't go on forever, it was a sweet, sweet time. laughs and tears. now she is home and so happy to be there. and it is nice to be a family again.

2 deer

earlier i reported scott had no deer this season. he has gotten 2 now...in the same day. more meat in the freezer. this is the last weekend of hunting season. he is out now.